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Monday, October 20, 2014

4 years later……

4 years later……

On this day, 4 years ago, October 20, 2010, I was told… “You have Cancer”.  

That was 1,461 days ago, (in case you’re curious). It’s a phone call I will never forget, it’s a phone call that I want to forget….

….It was only 3 months and 22 days after my Dad died from Cancer ( June 28, 2010). 

It was heart wrenching to tell my children that I was now sick too. It was equally as hard to tell my Mom and siblings. And then to tell my friends……..

The life of a Cancer patient is not easy; don’t let anyone tell you that it is. Don’t think for a minute that it is all sunshine and rainbows…as most of us hide our real feelings and the real pictures/photos of how the treatments have/had affected us.

 Don’t judge others for their choices that they make, if you have not been in their position. (this is in regards to recent news reports about Cancer patients making life choices)

Living in Chemopause (also known as Remission- a word I don’t use)  is not an easy life, there is the constant worrying and stress of not knowing if/and/or when your Cancer will come back. Scanxiety is uncontrollable when testing is scheduled.  I am now 3 years and 2 months into Chemopause.  I cherish every day. I try to make things better for other Cancer patients through Rebecca’s Chemo Closet and through friendships I have made with other Cancer patients. I have found people, people have found me and we support each other, as there are no support groups for my Cancer. 

Blaming people for the type of Cancer they have is inexcusable. Genetics and environment play a huge part for many…..

At a Cancer event that I went to on Friday, one of the speakers, a psychiatrist whose practice is cancer patients, handed out a pamphlet in regards to her talk. It’s called “Resilience and Coping”. There is a lot of good info as to what Resilient people worry about; info about understanding that living through the Cancer experience can be one of the most stressful times in your life, allowing your feelings to come through to others, not forcing a positive attitude for the benefit of others. I just sat there nodding my head, like OMG, finally someone gets it!

I woke up this morning with Elton John’s song “I’m still standing” running through my head. J I love the video, I love these lyrics.    Help, it wont stop..LOL.

I hope you are all enjoying the leaves and trees and the color changes, it’s beautiful, make sure you take a minute or two to look around and see the beauty around you!

Love & hugs,

Rebecca






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