Waiting…..wishing…..

Wow, I realized I haven’t posted anything in a month, not that people are beating the door down to read my stuff! But for those of you that are reading my blog, thank you! xo

It’s been a crazy month. Was doing ok with the new chemo until my liver enzymes got funky and my platelet count bottomed out last week. I got my first ever platelet transfusion on Thursday. That was interesting to say the least, looked like cloudy yellow pee in the iv bag. EW! I’m not too happy that my body is reacting like this to the chemo, it makes me really tired and I feel useless. I meet with my doc on Wednesday and the hope is that my body was boosted into making its own platelets and bone marrow from the transfusion. If that’s the case, then I can get my chemo on Wednesday, if not, then it all gets delayed. I have so many questions and some answers, but I’m stressing out a bit.

I promised to keep my blog upbeat and not sad, but sometimes it’s not easy to keep that smile going and make light of things that are happening.  I’ll admit it, I am scared.

It’s funny…a year ago, I told my husband, I need a break from life! Um, yeah this was NOT what I meant! If you know me, you know that people have always said “you are constantly running nonstop, when are you going to slow down?” my answer was always “If I slow down or stop, then you know something is seriously wrong” Go figure huh?

We are coming up on the 1 year anniversary of my Dad’s death from cancer on June 28th and that in itself is hard enough without going thru my chemo and the ups and downs I am experiencing.

I am learning to enjoy the simple things in life though and can sit on my deck for hours listening to the birds and watching the butterflies in my yard. I’m waiting on my 2 huge butterfly bushes to bloom soon! Can’t wait!

Bec