Here we are, my husband Walter, Rachel, Me and our son Michael!
Bec
Baldylocks
Friday, May 13, 2011
Pinning Ceremony!
Last night was awesome! My daughter, Rachel earned her Radiology Technician pin!! The ceremony was really beautiful and we placed her pin around her neck. It was pretty emotional. She will graduate from college tomorrow! I was so glad that chemo was delayed this week, I actually felt like a human last night!!
Here we are, my husband Walter, Rachel, Me and our son Michael!
Here's to good things!
Bec
Here we are, my husband Walter, Rachel, Me and our son Michael!
Bec
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Time flies and other things...
Wow! So in just a few hours, we will attend a Pinning Ceremony for our daughter Rachel. She will receive the Radiology Technician pin! This is so exciting, she has worked so incredibly hard for 3 years to achieve this!! Rachel will graduate Harcum College as a Rad Tech on Saturday and I am so thankful to be here for this!! It amazes me how fast time flies by! I swear to G-d she was just a tiny preemie a few years ago!! I could have sworn I just graduated from there, but my friends have reminded me that happened 28 years ago! (EEK) I will post pics soon!
In Cancer world, I have been given the name of my new chemo drug.... Gemzar. It will be given along with my carboplatinum. Hmmm..... "Gem", "Platinum".....maybe I deserve some jewelry after all this crap! LOL. On a serious note, I hope to hell I don't have an allergic reaction to this one. The side effects sounds lovely...Nausea/Vomiting, Fever, Flu symptoms, Rash, Low Platelets...Hair loss w/in 7 to 10 days...gee can't wait! Ok, the hair loss is no biggie....just gonna have to learn to sunscreen my bald head! I will still have to get the Neulasta shot...hate that freaking thing! On a positive note, nobody wanted to stick me with needles yesterday and I gained a 1/2 lb! YAY!!
It's a beautiful day and it will be even more beautiful tonight as we pin our daughter!
So I end this on a happy note......
=)
Love
Bec
In Cancer world, I have been given the name of my new chemo drug.... Gemzar. It will be given along with my carboplatinum. Hmmm..... "Gem", "Platinum".....maybe I deserve some jewelry after all this crap! LOL. On a serious note, I hope to hell I don't have an allergic reaction to this one. The side effects sounds lovely...Nausea/Vomiting, Fever, Flu symptoms, Rash, Low Platelets...Hair loss w/in 7 to 10 days...gee can't wait! Ok, the hair loss is no biggie....just gonna have to learn to sunscreen my bald head! I will still have to get the Neulasta shot...hate that freaking thing! On a positive note, nobody wanted to stick me with needles yesterday and I gained a 1/2 lb! YAY!!
It's a beautiful day and it will be even more beautiful tonight as we pin our daughter!
So I end this on a happy note......
=)
Love
Bec
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Life/Death/Friends
So, 2 postings ago I said this:
"ok, message here....don't keep things inside, tell someone, dont let the fear and sadness eat you up alone....share it, help each other in life. Be there for one another. it just might get someone else through a tough time in their life."Sadly, I learned a few days ago that a dear friend of mine committed suicide.....nobody saw that coming, nobody knew how much internal pain he must have been in...... Someone asked me if I am angry that he took his life, while I struggle to maintain mine...the answer is NO. I am heartbroken and sad that he thought that was the only thing left for him. He was a good man, person, friend and supportive thru my cancer. I will miss him forever and I cherish the friendship that we had.
Talk to each other people, share...someone does care!!
<3
Love
Bec
"ok, message here....don't keep things inside, tell someone, dont let the fear and sadness eat you up alone....share it, help each other in life. Be there for one another. it just might get someone else through a tough time in their life."Sadly, I learned a few days ago that a dear friend of mine committed suicide.....nobody saw that coming, nobody knew how much internal pain he must have been in...... Someone asked me if I am angry that he took his life, while I struggle to maintain mine...the answer is NO. I am heartbroken and sad that he thought that was the only thing left for him. He was a good man, person, friend and supportive thru my cancer. I will miss him forever and I cherish the friendship that we had.
Talk to each other people, share...someone does care!!
<3
Love
Bec
Happy Mother's Day!!
Hi!
Happy Mother's Day!!! This year more than ever, I am so proud to be called MOM!
Thank you Rachel & Michael for making me a MOM!
...Oh yeah and thank you Walter for making me a Mom! LOL.
To my friends out there....Have a wonderful day!!
Enjoy the blessing of being a Mom!!
I love you
Bec
Happy Mother's Day!!! This year more than ever, I am so proud to be called MOM!
Thank you Rachel & Michael for making me a MOM!
...Oh yeah and thank you Walter for making me a Mom! LOL.
To my friends out there....Have a wonderful day!!
Enjoy the blessing of being a Mom!!
I love you
Bec
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
day by day
Well last weeks chemo didn't go well at all....3 reactions, progressively worse each time Taxol was administered...I thought I was gonna die....and I'm not being dramatic.....I felt like hell. I do however have to give major credit to Sandy - for being there with me and having to see how bad it got, she is amazing.And for giving me my Neulasta shot! Also my chemo nurses- talk about incredible people! They kept me calm, helped me and made sure I was ok. My favorite nurse Caroline had Sandy give her a saline shot to practice on her before having to give me the shot the next day. They listened!! They understood and they cared. I am now going to be on a 2 week chemo break, as my oncologist and I talked and she is replacing my Taxol w another agent. Not sure what it will be, but I will still be on my Carboplatinum chemo. I meet with doc on the 11th to go over new med. My daughter's pinning ceremony is on the 12th for Rad Tech and she graduates college on the 14th. I will be well enough to attend both ceremonies-since chemo is on hold for that week too. I wouldn't miss Rachel's graduation for anything! I'm so proud of her and all that she has accomplished in her 21 years!
Today was a better day, the bone pain from the Neulasta shot (for bone marrow) is subsiding, hurts most at night. Tonight I watched School House Rock with Michael and laughed...which was very much needed. I kmow my son worries about me and I know he is scared....I try to reassure him the best I can. I learned tonight that after the first failed surgery in November (the surgeon had to stop when he found it metasticized to lymph node) ....as the surgeon walked away from my son, Michael flipped on his shuffle and Pink Floyds "On The Turning Away" came on....it hit my son hard, the song makes me cry as it does for him...and I realized that he sat there in that room surrounded by his dad,sister, aunt, ,uncle, friends, and yet he felt utterly alone with the song and his thoughts. kind of breaks my heart that this happened to him. But shows me how strong he tries to be....it took from November to May for him to tell me this. sigh.........ok, message here....don't keep things inside, tell someone, dont let the fear and sadness eat you up alone....share it, help each other in life. Be there for one another. it just might get someone else through a tough time in their life.
Life is too short to live it alone, live in fear, live for dying....we need to be able to live for living...take tehe gift of each new day and see where you can find a positive- even if its teensy weensy....grab a positive piece of your day and roll with it! a puppy pillow helps too!
with love
Bec
Today was a better day, the bone pain from the Neulasta shot (for bone marrow) is subsiding, hurts most at night. Tonight I watched School House Rock with Michael and laughed...which was very much needed. I kmow my son worries about me and I know he is scared....I try to reassure him the best I can. I learned tonight that after the first failed surgery in November (the surgeon had to stop when he found it metasticized to lymph node) ....as the surgeon walked away from my son, Michael flipped on his shuffle and Pink Floyds "On The Turning Away" came on....it hit my son hard, the song makes me cry as it does for him...and I realized that he sat there in that room surrounded by his dad,sister, aunt, ,uncle, friends, and yet he felt utterly alone with the song and his thoughts. kind of breaks my heart that this happened to him. But shows me how strong he tries to be....it took from November to May for him to tell me this. sigh.........ok, message here....don't keep things inside, tell someone, dont let the fear and sadness eat you up alone....share it, help each other in life. Be there for one another. it just might get someone else through a tough time in their life.
Life is too short to live it alone, live in fear, live for dying....we need to be able to live for living...take tehe gift of each new day and see where you can find a positive- even if its teensy weensy....grab a positive piece of your day and roll with it! a puppy pillow helps too!
with love
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